March 31, 2021: Continuation of the Work Heartstrings
LONGING tells the story of a woman's longing for a man who once entered and brightened her life after being struck by a painful experience of love in the past. Unfortunately, with this man, the story she hoped for ended as expected, with many things she learned that caused her to grow and change for the better over time. Yet, some things they both had gone through and agreed upon still ended in disappointment.
The separation was not a final one for the woman. Over time, she explained through her writing strength that she felt things were still unresolved. She did not deny that her story with this man had its beautiful moments, especially as they were together through difficult times, even in the face of distance between them. She also acknowledged how meaningful their meetings were from the beginning and their daily journey—observing and trying to understand. But unfortunately, it seemed that the man still did not consider this woman "different."
Months after the separation, she kept searching and felt a loss, although she was sure that the man did not feel the same way. Because, in truth, he did not acknowledge her existence. She continued to feel the turmoil between longing and heartbreak, trying to remember the man's flaws, which she had kept for a long time (and also tried to forgive), and finally released at a particular moment, hoping to end the constant searching. Yet, longing and heartbreak remained daily, even clinging to each step she took.
The notes in this melody flowed naturally when she reached the peak of the longing that had been enveloping her life for months. The theme of the work appears at the beginning, which will be repeated twice with ornament changes; this part represents the woman, who, when feeling great longing, would fall silent, reflect, and then shed tears. At that moment, she always prayed, hoping the feeling would soon fade away.
After each repetition of the theme, the following notes represent how the woman, in her longing, reminisces about various moments spent with the man. There were many things, even though it had not been years, and she could only feel this feeling. She wonders whether the man still feels the same way. This includes their first meeting, which became a beautiful moment that the woman repeatedly reminisced about. In the final section, the diminished chords with arpeggio touches represent how the woman recalls, in her longing reverie, her last complicated experience with the man. So complicated. Until it eventually ended.
The G chord at the closing of this work does not express longing or an unresolved feeling. However, upon closer listening, the touch of Major 7 and the repetition three times in the middle and upper octaves represent something left unfinished (suspended), and this is what the woman continues to feel every day. However, the woman can do no more to overcome this longing, the yearning, and the heartbreak that arises together. For her, it is enough to move on and accept. Enough. Sometimes, she hopes to meet again, but simultaneously (repeatedly), she truly wishes for those feelings to die. Even as soon as possible.
This work is subjective to the composer. However, the composer does not limit listeners and music lovers from interpreting each of her works based on their subjectivity.
Since this is a spontaneous work that emerged from the mind and heart, the creation of the sheet music is still in progress. Thank you for witnessing my work. Also, thank you for supporting my colleagues and me in sharing stories through my music. Whether it fits the musical taste of listeners or the general public in this country, I only want to be honest in my music. The only medium that allows me to be more truthful is music and writing.
Thank you for listening and engaging with my simple work!
Sola Fide
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